And seeing that number stay the same and then go up is the most frustrating and discouraging thing! It sets my day off on a bad note right from the start. And I am so tired of feeling like that!
I've hit plateaus before, and it's always frustrating. Usually when I hit a plateau, it's because I've started allowing too many cheat meals in and/or started slacking in my exercise.
However! This time, I know that I'm doing well. I feel stronger than I have in YEARS. I'm starting to get some definition in my legs. I've upped my weights and started a new Jillian Michaels DVD (Ripped in 30) and I can already tell its going to be effective. I've got my eating under control, and even on my few cheat meals, I've kept the portions reasonable.
So. This is my new plan of action and challenge to myself. I put away my scale this morning, and I'm not going to weigh myself for a month. One month. June 9th will be my next weigh in. I'm still going to log my calories in My Fitness Pal. I'm still going to work out 5-6 days a week, either with an exercise DVD, walking with the stroller, or running. But I want to focus more on the health and fitness aspect of my weight loss journey. Not the number on the scale. I want to tone and tighten, and focus on being fit and in shape more than being thin.
And I have to admit, I'm a little scared. I'm a little terrified of gaining all of my weight back. But I need a change of perspective. And a chance to recharge and be excited about my weight loss journey again.